I LOVE IT when people that I don't know fave my stuff!!!

in other news, high school is over. I actually think I'm moving on quite nicely...

*knocks on wood*

ok so Heather and I saw Beauty Shop a few weeks ago and the black women in it would always start chanting this Maya Angelou poem...I actually really liked it a lot and finally found it online: (that and I haven't updated this thing in forever, soooo...here we go.)

"Phenomenal Woman," by Maya Angelou

Pretty women wonder where my secret lies.
I'm not cute or built to suit a fashion model's size
But when I start to tell them,
They think I'm telling lies.
I say,
It's in the reach of my arms
The span of my hips,
The stride of my step,
The curl of my lips.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

I walk into a room
Just as cool as you please,
And to a man,
The fellows stand or
Fall down on their knees.
Then they swarm around me,
A hive of honey bees.
I say,
It's the fire in my eyes,
And the flash of my teeth,
The swing in my waist,
And the joy in my feet.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

Men themselves have wondered
What they see in me.
They try so much
But they can't touch
My inner mystery.
When I try to show them
They say they still can't see.
I say,
It's in the arch of my back,
The sun of my smile,
The ride of my breasts,
The grace of my style.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

Now you understand
Just why my head's not bowed.
I don't shout or jump about
Or have to talk real loud.
When you see me passing
It ought to make you proud.
I say,
It's in the click of my heels,
The bend of my hair,
the palm of my hand,
The need of my care,
'Cause I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

real self-esteem poem, right there. gotta love that stuff.

wow haven't updated in here in awhile. I've kind of gotten out of a deviantart mood or something...I just haven't really felt motivated to write anything. I was looking through my old freshman yearbook and a bunch of random memories just popped into my head. gah and then I was remembering all of this fun stuff that I'd forgotten about from all 4 years. so I'll do this in installments, I guess. but here we go...

Freshman year reverie:

--going running with Sheena. going over to each other's houses and playing cards and watching tv and playing lacrosse and making jokes about her asian-ness

--being on the lacrosse team with my sister. and how bad I was at it

--how I always made a total dumbass of myself in Mr. Baczkowski's class

--how I was late to first-period biology every single friggin' day

--going into tech ed on september 11th and mr. reisinger went off on us for not being patriotic enough and almost started crying

--going to see LOTR and Spiderman with jessica, hannah and kelsey

--how hanging out at the mall used to be so cool
and fun

--when Eric first asked me to go to the movies and I was sooooooooo nervous. we went to see Spiderman, haha. I think I almost threw up from nervousness

--THE FRESHMAN ASSEMBLY!!! oh wow I had totally forgotten about that, I have no idea how...we wrote a skit to make fun of the teachers and I was Mr. B and I was so afraid nobody would think it was funny but people liked us

--going to homecoming dinner with hannah and about 30 other people at mexicali cantina. homecoming was so much fun. I danced with Ben and it was, like, the highlight of my life at the time. Sheena slept over that night

--going to see Peter Pan because Kelsey and Brittany were in it. we made fun of Bill before I'd ever even met him

--escaping one of my dad's political events by going over to Jessica's to sit in her hot tub

--going to see LOTR with my family the first time and becoming obsessed with Elijah Wood

--seeing the second episode of Star Wars with my sister. and then like 3 other times in the theater with Eric and Hannah

--going to play putt putt; it was kind of stormy-looking but we didn't stop until hannah's mom came to pick us up early because there were tornado warnings

--Mr. Zearfoss's class. god I love that man

--taking Drama I and being really intimidated by Templeton

--skipping on the last day of school to go out to lunch and being TERRIFIED of getting caught

--meeting Amy in Drama I. we did our project on musicals together and temp still talks about it today, teehee--it was that good. and we became friends

--then summer camp...Amy became one of my best friends. and camp was the most fun I'd had for awhile

--my dad coming to see Godspell and telling me afterwards that it made him cry

--sleeping over at Kelsey's house in Libertytown and using paper towels and band-aids to cover up her curtainless windows (lest one of her freaky commune neighbors tried to look in the window)

--finally getting over my fear of roller coasters at Hershey Park by going on the great bear

--spending the whole day with Hannah once over the summer...we went to the mall to hang out (ugh we used to do that SO MUCH!) and ate dinner at the Italian Oven. then went back to her house and watched the DVD extras for Moulin Rouge. I still have the photos that we took in this picture booth at that arcade place.

--Sheena telling me about how she was moving to Maine...I didn't know how I was going to survive without her. she came that same night to see Godspell with McCamie

--having the biggest crush on Brad. as I'm sure everyone else has at some time or another

--going to DC with my brother and dad but getting to go around to museums with just John. we got yelled at for running up the escalator

oh god the list could just go on and on, I need to stop...as much as I'd like to forget all the retarded stuff I did in 9th grade I did have fun, too. it doesn't feel like so long ago. I doubt anyone read this far but, if you have...good for you! give yourself a pat on the back.

hilarious moments of the last 48 hours:

--chinese food feeding frenzy
--andrew kicking that death-defying bag of trash outside the FCCAC
--porn and vegetable/genetalia conversations with andrew, kelsey, and jack
--going the wrong way down one-way streets
--the thought that I think if I do not have some sexual stimulation soon, my clitoris will shrivel up and cease to exist
--Chris Rock hosting the Oscars

yes, you're jealous because you wish you were on the inside of this hilarity. admit it. oh wow I don't know how I'll ever manage to go back to school ever again

auditioned for the musical today. which actually went pretty well, my voice miraculously sounded pretty damn good. one girl sang and it was seriously like a bad american idol audition and it kept going on and on and on and I had to try so hard to keep a straight face.

oh man there was also this guy who auditioned and he was SOOOOO CUTE!!! and then he held the door for me when we went down to dance and he sang a Dashboard Confessional song for his audition piece (and we all know I'm such an emo, dashboard-lovin' dork) and I was just like HOLY SHIT I LOVE YOU DUDE!!! just my luck he's probably a freshman or something...maybe a junior, I'm crossing my fingers.

in any case the cast list is posted on friday, hopefully I'll get a role that doesn't suck choad.